[ he isn't sure why he's hesitating. it certainly isn't something that the kanima part of him (or the ghosts or whatever!!) is in control of. no, this seems to be all jackson -- the human part of him at least. the part that understands that this isn't something either of them should have been caught up in. not the game and not the supernatural things going around Beacon Hills either. if he kills her now, he would be alone. he doesn't really have the greatest track record of friends to start and hesitantly, he admits that despite everything ... lydia counts as something close to that. ]
1/3? also i am sorryyyy this took forever
or the ghosts or whatever!!) is in control of. no, this seems to be all jackson -- the human part of him at least. the part that understands that this isn't something either of them should have been caught up in. not the game and not the supernatural things going around Beacon Hills either. if he kills her now, he would be alone. he doesn't really have the greatest track record of friends to start and hesitantly, he admits that despite everything ... lydia counts as something close to that. ]